I had the best intentions to get out there again, but……….

First, the internet dating pool pretty much dried up. The only men who wanted to meet were at least 10 years older than me and I’m not interested in someone older. My youngest child is still in elementary school. She’s got way too much energy (as do I) for an old guy.

Second, my ex from a year ago mentioned wanting to come see me and I was all excited. We’ve talked a few times lately and I could hear that same sound in his voice. I was so looking forward to it…. Until the point when I realized that seeing him would be a big mistake.

So, I wrote to him and said, I don’t want you to come visit, blah, blah, drama, drama. He’s response was nothing. Total silence. He must be very broken up about the whole thing. (Not.)

I made my online dating profile invisible and I’ve been taking a break. I feel that I need to work on me, sort of build myself up again, before I give it another try. At this point I feel on the unlovable side. Not a good feeling.

I’ve been spending a lot of time riding my bike and thinking lately. It’s my favorite place to think.

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On an unrelated note….. Susan Sarandon and Tim Robbins split up. I took my pen name, Annie Savoy, from the film they made together – Bull Durham. (Love that movie!)

I feel bad for them, because they were together for a long time, and I am self-centered enough to wonder if I’ve doomed my quest for love by picking the Annie name.

Image credit: Annie S