Ever have one of those days where you look back on your life and your relationships and realize just how stupid some of the choices were that you made?

Facebook is a great tool for connecting with friends, relatives and acquaintances, but it can also be quite the slap in the face when you suddenly see, by way of some mutual connection, a friends suggestion for an old flame. Steve… even typing his name sends quivers down my spine. Whispering his name – tickles my lips and flutters my heart.

What the hell does Facebook know?

They know how to kick start old feelings – that’s what they know.

A portion of my day has been spent playing voyeur to the websites and social media profiles of that old flame that Facebook suggests I reconnect with. I say voyeur because, given the circumstances, I would feel a bit awkward in sending a friend request. The dude is married now and has two small children.

I should feel awkward right?

That would be wrong to send a request, right?

I mean – I’m single – technically – and to be honest, it wouldn’t take much to get me to race back into his arms.

That alone makes it wrong! As far as I’m concerned anyway.

It’s ok to write about it though – I mean about the relationship as it was – the passion, the love, the trust, the excitement – all the things onscreen chemistry is made of in Hollywood – I found and lost in the suburbs of a Midwestern city.

It’s been 18 years since I walked away from Steve, but I’ve never been far from him really – I’ve always kept a periodic watch from afar to see how he’s doing, what he’s doing and hope he’s happy (not really, because no girl wants to admit a guy can find happiness or be happy without her!)

That’s what I’ll do, I’ll write! I’ll share the story as I remember it – stay tuned – there’s plenty more to come.